Billie Lourd paid tribute to her mother, Carrie Fisher, seven years following her death with a touching tribute about the emotions of grief.
“It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me, I guess?) Every anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief,” Lourd shared in a social media post on X, the platform formerly known as Twitter. “Some infuse me with rage, some make me cry all day long, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of those things all at once.”
She continued, “This year when I woke up I felt grateful – or griefull, if you will. Grief has infused my life with a sense of appreciation I had never had before. It makes me soak up every moment of joy as if it were my last.”
The Scream Queens alum noted that while she was holding her daughter as she took a nap her “eyes welled up with tears of joy.”
“I laughed at myself then cried more cause I was laughing. I felt my mombys presence like the warmth of the sun on your skin on a hot summer day,” she added. “The kind of warmth where you unknowingly close your eyes and take a slow breath through your nose and grin.”
“I miss her every day but the cliche is also true – she is with me every day – she infuses my joyful moments with even more joy. As I tell my son, she lives in the stars – and she damn sure makes my life sparkle. Sending my love to all my griefers out there. And hoping everyone can feel a little sparkle of griefull among all the feelings grief inevitably brings.”
Fisher died on Dec. 27, 2016, at the age of 60 after suffering a medical emergency on a flight from London to Los Angeles.
See Lourd’s posts honoring her mother below.
